What am I doing??

Okay, so Andrew (my huge crush of the past 4 years) is basically dating some girl who just barely graduated from high school.  I hate that.  I vented on my tumblr about it....

That's my feelings about it.  I hate that I feel that way, but I can't help it.  I'm jealous.  Lindsey tells me to not be jealous and I really wish I wasn't.. But I can't not be jealous at this point.

Then there's Colton.  I don't know why but I have this weird thing for him...  So we hung out last night and it was good.  He's kinda basically an octopus though.  Because we watched a movie after the dance concert at Beth's house and he just wrapped himself around me.  Kinda funny actually.  But then I asked him if he'd go to church with me today because he had previously told me that he'd "do anything [to get me back]:  I'll take out my earrings, I'll go to church with you."  And church was good.  We held hands and things are just comfortable with him.  But he wants so much more I think.. I'm really fine with just being friends with him.  But I don't know where things are going.  What am I doing with him???  I don't know if I am just doing it cuz I'm sad about Andrew.... Who knows.... Blah, boys are dumb.  I should just concentrate on school right now...