Meagan Crafts

So Meagan Crafts is absolutely amazing.  I was over hanging out with her today and I was there when she had scripture study with her roommates.  My scriptural knowledge is rather suckish so it was cool to listen to them talk about the chapter afterwards.  Lots of different random things came up but I remember her saying "It's when good people stand by and do nothing, that great people lose the ability to accomplish things."  Amazing statement.

Afterwards we were just sitting in her room talking and we talked about lots of different stuff again, but on one subject she was like "Alyssa.  You are so so sooo beautiful, and I hope you know that.  You seriously are so kind and giving and selfless that it amazes me."  She said a lot of other things but I've never thought of myself as that person.  I guess I just do those things without realizing how they affect others.

Those three hours I spent with Meagan were some of the most spiritual moments I've had in awhile.  Words that were spoken seriously touched my heart and made me realize certain things in my life.  I'm so grateful for friends like her that can say the most amazing things without even knowing how they're affecting the people around her.  Thank you Meagan for being yourself in a world of so many who aren't.  I'm grateful for you and for the things you've said tonight that touched my heart.

I Wouldn't Mind

Merrily we fall out of line

Out of line

I'd fall anywhere with you

I'm by your side

Swinging in the rain

Humming melodies

We're not going anywhere until we freeze.

I'm not afraid anymore

I'm not afraid.

Forever is a long time.

But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.

Carefully we'll place for our destiny

You came and you took this heart

And set it free.

Every word you write and sing is so warm to me.

So warm to me.

I'm torn, I'm torn

To be right where you are.

I'm not afraid anymore.

I'm not afraid.

Forever is a long time.

But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.

Tell me everyday

I get to wake up to that smile.

I wouldn't mind it at all.

I wouldn't mind it at all.

You so know me.

Pinch me gently.

I can hardly breath.

Forever is a long, long time.

But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.

Tell me

Everyday I get to wake up to that smile.

I wouldn't mind it at all.

I wouldn't mind it at all.

Thank you He Is We for this amazing song.  It is exactly how I feel but he doesn't even know.

Afraid?

So I think I have a problem.  Every time some amazing guy comes into my life, I push them away.  I know I'm afraid of commitment, but that's not even what these boys are necessarily asking for.  They just want to take me out and have fun, but I can't even let them enjoy that.  Is it because I subconsciously know I'm really in love with Loaiza so I don't want to even have anyone else try??  That just seems ridiculous though.  Andrew probably doesn't even realize how much I like him.  Really really like him.  A lot a lot.  And it's pathetic that I like him so much, right?  No.  Because seriously I just love how amazing he is.  He's my dream guy no doubt.  But is it terrible that I can't enjoy the company of other guys who want to take me out and treat me right while me and him are 5 hours away and we haven't even verbalized the feelings between us??  Ah I just need to chill.  And talk to Andrew.....  I just don't know how to do it because we already don't talk a lot since we're both busy with school and work.

Everything has to work out though.  It just has to.  And then everything will be okay.

I Love my Family of Friends

This past weekend was truly amazing.  I was able to go "cabin-ing" with the best friends I could ever ask for.  I truthfully was a little worried about it, but I don't even remember why now.  It also slightly stressed me out that I found out a few of my residents were really sick right as I was leaving.  I felt like I was abandoning them in their greatest time of need...not really, but close to it.  Anyway, we drove up to Richfield to meet up with Katelin, Tiana, Bryce, and Joey.  We stopped at Cyd's and I got to talk with Brett (holy moly I don't know why I have a crush on that boy.. but I do).  Then we headed off to Kate's cabin!  It was pretty much a hilarious drive up.  Partway there Brian started flashing his brights at us, so we flashed ours at Cyd so that we could all pull over.  Really nothing was wrong, just Brian's car full was dancing and being funny.  Then a little while later Cyd almost hit a deer.  She slowed down enough that by the time she reached it she only gave it a little smack on the butt, but it was still a pretty scary thought.  When we got to the cabin it was freezing cold outside and snowing.  But the cabin warmed right up and we cooked pizza, played Wackee Six, and Just Dance on the Wii.  Some how it was all the sudden 3 in the morning... Kylei, Tiana, and I decided to go to bed.  Kylei fell right asleep, but me and T ended up talking and laughing until probably 4:30.  And nobody heard us.  But I swear we were so loud.  It was the best.  Saturday we all woke up really late and made french toast for breakfast.  Then we headed down to Fishlake where we hung out and took pictures and threw snowballs.  The rest of the day was just relaxing and having fun!  We had Hawaiian haystacks for dinner and played Suck & Blow and Truth or Dare.  It was really just a game of Dare though. And holy moly the things we dared each other.  It was really nasty in all honesty but a ton of fun.  We went to bed really late again and then cleaned up the cabin and headed out the next morning.  When Kate and myself stopped at her house to shower before church we found out we were locked out.  So we headed to her backyard to see if we could maybe pop a window open.  Her dog Kia is the craziest dog I've ever met!  And I'm scared of dogs.  Needless to say we couldn't open any windows so Kate's dad came and opened the garage and then we got ready.  We went to the single's ward in Richfield and then back to Kate's where her mom, Polly, had made the most delicious dinner ever.  I can't even begin to you guys how much I love Kate's family.  They treat me like I'm their own daughter and are just too kind.  I love them to bits and pieces.

Honest to goodness though, my friends down here at school are my family and I couldn't have asked for any better.  The girls are such great examples and are so funny.  Then there's those absolutely amazing Taco Boys.  Seriously, everyone is just the best ever.  I don't understand how they're that awesome and why I deserve them.  But I love each and every one of them for their unique personalities and the light and laughter they bring to my life.  Thanks everyone for the fantastic weekend and I love you all!!!