One of Those Days.. Or Weeks.

Have you ever just not wanted to be around people?  Because that has been me the past few days.  I want to get out and be around people so I'm not alone with my thoughts, but then when I do go out with people I just am super quiet and not my usual self.  I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but I've definitely been sad.  Like today I could have gone and hung out with friends during the Super Bowl, but I decided to stay in and do homework.  It was homework that needed to get done, but still...  I don't know.  I really just need to get out of Cedar.  Away from school.  Away from work.  Away from my apartment.  I need new surroundings and some (not as) fresh air to breath.
I'm way burnt out of being an RA, especially since I was on duty this weekend.  I just feel like it's been more work than the benefits have been worth.  I love my roommates, but a lot of my residents just seems really immature lately and they annoy me.  I wish I could be an RA who doesn't live with them.  Then maybe it'd be easier.
I've also been thinking about the future a lot this week.  I applied to Utah State since they have a really good Dietetics program and if I could finish in two years then it would be cheaper than down here at SUU.  But if I can't finish in that time then I'll just stay down here at SUU.  I don't want to leave Cedar because I love my friends down here and all the nutrition professors are great, but I can't help but think that maybe there's something more for me out there.  And I don't know what.  But I asked Joey if him and Brian or Spencer would want to come give me a blessing soon.  Hopefully that will help.  Until then I'm just filled with the "I don't know" feeling and I hate it.  Life is so confusing and complicated and I'm probably making it more than it needs to be but it's just how I am.  I need to stop stressing!!  That will be my goal of the week:  stop stressing.  And get feeling better.