Confusion..

"Our goal is eternal life in the presence of our Father in Heaven. He loves us and wants nothing more than for us to succeed in this goal. He will help us and bless us as we call upon Him in our prayers, as we study His words, and as we obey His commandments. Therein is found safety; therein is found peace."
-President Thomas S. Monson
I never quite know what to expect when I meet somebody new. Friendship, romance, acquaintances... you know, relationships are a mystery until they unfold. As I mentioned before, I went on a date on Valentine's Day and it was one of the best I've ever gone on: he was a gentleman, it was fun, conversation flowed easily, and just enjoyable in general. Since then we've hung out more and talked a lot. I've never felt so comfortable with someone as quickly as I have with him. It's weird for me, but I like it...I like him. A lot. I just don't know what's right right now. Am I supposed to date him and stay at SUU or am I supposed to go to Utah State next fall and follow a different path? Thank goodness for Kate and her pearls of wisdom. She's one of the most spiritually in tune people that I know and I'm grateful that I could ask her advice on the situation. We talked about prayer and asking to know what is right. Hopefully I get a feeling or answer or anything to direct me because I honestly have never felt this way about anyone else and I don't want to mess it up...
Life is so precious and I don't want to miss a second of it. I've been thinking a lot about life lately and who knows why. But... I want to make the most of it. I've been so dang emotional lately and I don't know what brought it on but I just cry over the most random things and the most random times. So basically I'm just confused and that's all right now.

Sleepovers

So whenever I come home, I get to share a room with my little sister Aimee.  It's a sleepover every night and she's so dang cute!

Life Update.

So it's been a little bit since I posted anything serious about my life.  Basically all I've been doing is sleeping, studying, going to class, and eating.  The essentials.  But I've also been way stressed with just doing those things.  So I have had a few nights of just fun.  Katelin and Tiana never fail to help me forget about the rest of my life and just enjoy the here and now.  Wednesday night we had a chill night and watched Valentine's Day, just us three girls.  It had been awhile since I'd seen it but I sure do love it, and Patrick Dempsey of course.  Then Thursday night we went to Footloose that SUUSA put on and it was good as well!  I want to watch the old one soon now.
But the real reason for this post is Valentine's Day.  It was amazing.  I've never gone on a Valentine's date, but this year it happened.  Jordan asked me out and then it was just a big group date with Katelin/Tanner, Tiana/Jaron, and Fenja/Chad.  Kate and Tan made us dinner, we played games, went to Applebee's, a single's party, and then to Jack and Cyd's house and just chilled.  I'm usually really awkward on dates and not myself at all, but being with Jordan was so comfortable and easy.  I don't know how much I like him right now, but he's definitely got me hooked.  He told Tiana to put in a good word for him, but he doesn't need any good words.  He was such a gentleman and that date was one of the best I've ever been on.  We'll see how things go with him!! :)

This was us playing games...Kate and Tan in this picture just crack me up!

Then there's Andrew.  He text me the day after my date with Jordan...it was so weird/random.  We hung out this weekend since I came home again and it was different than usual.  Generally, I feel some huge connection to him, like we're destined to be together or something like that.  But last night was just weird.  That's the only way I can think of to describe it.  I still like him and all that, but I wasn't feeling it really.  I dunno how to explain it.  I guess God just have different plans for me.  Whether that's just in my current time frame of life or for the rest of my life, I don't know.  But I guess we'll just see where things go with him too!  He'll always be a really good friend though.  That much I do know.
But that's been my life lately.  Pretty boring, but sort of eventful in its own way I guess.

Apparently..

So, this is the chocolates my mother gave me for Valentine's Day.  Yup, she knows me so well......

Another Laugh

This kid is way funny.  Enjoy.

One of Those Days.. Or Weeks.

Have you ever just not wanted to be around people?  Because that has been me the past few days.  I want to get out and be around people so I'm not alone with my thoughts, but then when I do go out with people I just am super quiet and not my usual self.  I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but I've definitely been sad.  Like today I could have gone and hung out with friends during the Super Bowl, but I decided to stay in and do homework.  It was homework that needed to get done, but still...  I don't know.  I really just need to get out of Cedar.  Away from school.  Away from work.  Away from my apartment.  I need new surroundings and some (not as) fresh air to breath.
I'm way burnt out of being an RA, especially since I was on duty this weekend.  I just feel like it's been more work than the benefits have been worth.  I love my roommates, but a lot of my residents just seems really immature lately and they annoy me.  I wish I could be an RA who doesn't live with them.  Then maybe it'd be easier.
I've also been thinking about the future a lot this week.  I applied to Utah State since they have a really good Dietetics program and if I could finish in two years then it would be cheaper than down here at SUU.  But if I can't finish in that time then I'll just stay down here at SUU.  I don't want to leave Cedar because I love my friends down here and all the nutrition professors are great, but I can't help but think that maybe there's something more for me out there.  And I don't know what.  But I asked Joey if him and Brian or Spencer would want to come give me a blessing soon.  Hopefully that will help.  Until then I'm just filled with the "I don't know" feeling and I hate it.  Life is so confusing and complicated and I'm probably making it more than it needs to be but it's just how I am.  I need to stop stressing!!  That will be my goal of the week:  stop stressing.  And get feeling better.

Another Good Laugh

Sierra looks like she's crying as she's gutting her first fish ever.

I got the biggest kick out of this ever.

All the pictures from Joey were great, but this one is just the icing on the cake.

Music I Love Currently

Enjoy everyone!