I've Become A Horrible Blogger

I spend my life either doing homework, working, or sleeping.  I used to feel like I lived at my work when I worked at the Rec Center.  Nope.  I literally live at my work.  I work for University Housing, hence they house me.  My residents come to me all the time.  I love them, but there are times when I just want to get away from it.  But of course I have homework that decides to suck up all my extra time.  I miss my friends!  I feel like I barely get to see them and it saddens me.  Random side note..freaking everyone and their dog is getting engaged or married or pregnant I swear.  And what am I doing?  None of the above.  I feel like I should be doing more or finally finding someone.  But no, I'm not.  I just cause myself drama with boys.  Not even necessarily drama, but headaches for myself.  Take Andrew Loaiza for example.  What is there going on between us??? It's driving me crazy.  I feel like there's something there, but I don't know because neither of us will say anything.  I've had the biggest crush on that boy since I was a sophomore in high school.  He's a returned missionary going to Utah State University.  He's my brother's best friend.  My parents love him.  Freak, I love him.  I might not be in love with him, but I'm surely willing to fall in love with him.  Oh my goodness why can't I just make up my mind with boys?  Joey is extremely nice and so cute and just amazing but of course I have to go and be all awkward and ruin things.  But he's still willing to take me on dates.  I'm such a horrible girl.  I should just be happy when something is going good but I can't.  Okay well I feel like I'm done venting now.  On a happier thought, I love Pinterest so much!  I find such cool/amazing/inspiring/great things on there everyday!

Here are some of my photography pictures.  Not super awesome but it's whatever.

 And this is Kate, Fenja, and me eating papusas that the Taco Boys made us for dinner one Sunday.

I did powderpuff and Maso Muli totally smoked the other team!! 30-6 baby :)

 I went to St. George with Emily and my roomies!

 We took Eva to the hospital.

 A good part of my floor going to the Homecoming Football game. We won.

 Emily became a model at Applebee's.

 Sierra also became a model for my photography.

I did a spa night with my girls and we did face masks and nails!

So I'm Taking a Photography Class...

Alright, so I decided to take photography because I absolutely love taking pictures and just pictures in general.  And I really like the class.  But when it comes to knowing what to take pictures of, I'm at a loss.  I'm trying to be creative, but it's rough.  Myself and Bree were just walking around campus since our class got out early and I saw bike racks so I figured I'd take a picture of that.  Now there's this thing called shallow depth of field.  So that's what I was going for.  But I'm not going to use this picture as my final for it.  I want to get a better one, but it will have bikes in it!

The background is blurry, while the red bike is in focus.  That's Shallow DOF.

Then here's a picture I'll probably use for Greater depth of field.  It's of my residents at our Beach Party activity we planned.

Everything is supposed to be in focus from side to side for greater DOF.

So I'll definitely keep posting my photography adventures.  But I just don't feel like a super awesome photographer haha....

Here's another picture that I just enjoy.

Mosiah 2:41

"And moreover, I would desire that ye should consider on the blessed and happy state of those that keep the commandments of God.  For behold, they are blessed in all things, both temporal and spiritual; and if they hold out faithful to the end they are received into heaven, that thereby they may dwell with God in a state of never-ending happiness.  O remember, remember that these things are true; for the Lord God hath spoken it."

Once Upon a Time

So today in church I was flipping through my scriptures reading all the old handouts and things that were stuck between the pages and what not.  I came across the talk "Your Happily Ever After" by President Dieter F. Uchtdorf.  I'd forgotten how much I loved this.  Here's what I had highlighted and underlined:
1)  Heavenly Father offers us the greatest gift of all, eternal life, and the opportunity and infinite blessing of our own, "happily ever after."
2)  The leaders of the church love us, pray for us, and rejoice in our faithfulness.
3)  "Once upon a time" promises something:  a story of adventure and romance, a story of princesses and princes.  Nice overcomes mean and good overcomes evil.
4)  Isn't that what we all desire:  to be the heroes and heroines of our own stories; to triumph over adversity; to experience life in all its beauty; and, in the end, to live happily ever after? (I had written to the side "yes.")
5)  These words are true:  You area beloved daughter of Heavenly Father, prepared to come to the earth at this particular time for a sacred and glorious purpose.
6)  He loves us so much that he granted us this earthly life as a precious gift of "once upon a time," complete with your own true story of adventure, trial, and opportunities for greatness, nobility, courage, and love.  And, most glorious of all, He offers you a gift beyond price and comprehension.  Heavenly Father offers to us the greatest gift of all, eternal life, and the opportunity and infinite blessing of your own "happily ever after."
***Here is where I felt the spirit.  I've been going through some trials of my own that I like to think I can take on by  myself, but really I need His help.  So I said a prayer.  I don't often feel the spirit as strongly as I did there.  I was reassured of my Savior's love for me and was reminded that He is always there for me, no matter what I'm doing or what I might be going through.  He sent me here to earth to learn these things and to help me with them.  Someone once told me that Heavenly Father would never give us something we couldn't handle.  So even though it might seem rough at times and like there's no way to turn, there is a way out and we will get through it.
7)  Such a blessing does not come without a price.  It comes only though understanding who you are and what you must become in order to be worth of such a gift.
8)  Every fairy tale has one thing in common:  they must overcome adversity.
9)  Has there ever been a person who did not have to go through his or her own dark valley of temptation, trial and sorrow?  (I wrote to the side, "no.")
10)  Sandwiched between their "once upon a time" and "happily ever after," they all had to experience great adversity.
11)  There must be opposition in all things.
12)  In stories, as in life, adversity teaches us things we cannot learn otherwise.  Adversity helps.

That was just the first page of the talk.  This was something that I really needed to read.  Funny how things work out, huh?  I'm simply writing my story, it started with "once upon a time," and I'm slowly but surely making my way to my "happily ever after."  I've got my own set of trials and temptations and sorrows, but I'm working through them.  I have the help of my family and friends and bishop(ric), but most of all, I have my loving Heavenly Father.  He's there with me every step of the way, sometimes carrying me when I feel like giving up on everything.
Now, I know I've said it before, but I really don't boast of my spirituality, partially because I feel weird doing it, but a lot because I like to think I'm independent.  But this is one of those things that I hope I never forget, because it has really helped me realize somethings in life.  God is there for not only me, but everyone around me, and he loves each and every one of us sooooo much.  Jesus Christ died for us, and through him and the atonement, we can be with our Heavenly Father once again.  I love this gospel so much.  I'm so thankful for it and what it brings to my life; I don't know where I'd be without it.